Quarantine Sick? (CALLING SOS)

 

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Quarantine Sick: 

    OMG!! How can I explain how sick of my own room walls and the scenery! Ugh, I want to go outside see friends, go have a HUGE party... Hopefully, this will be over soon. Heck, if it lasts another year I swear I'm gonna make 2020 a curse word, and MAN would I use it a lot. 

    There are so many things I'd rather do than be stuck at home. LOL. But there is one thing that I want to keep... and it's my safety and others' safety. I know it's hard, I get it EVERYONE is going through it. TBH I'm scared as heck. I know that we aren't going to just bounce back to what we were before no matter how hard we try. 

    There is nothing I can do to make it better, I have a strong case of Quarantine sickness. And there are people out there that have it worse and decide that they are gonna put other people in danger and do what they want to do. But this is not about them this is about me and how I'm trying to get a CURE for this quarantine sickness. 

    So I decided to make a blog, write music, draw, CONSTANTlY post on insta, and finally call and text my friends as often as I can. But now it's gotten old, *not the calling, texting my friends* I just don't have that much to do at home anymore. Shows on TV and Netflix have been replaced by youtube cause they make me laugh. But even then I'll watch the same Youtuber and they get overrated. *sigh* 

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    There is nothing in the world I'd rather do is go outside with a bunch of friends and have an awesome timeee. HeHe and have an AMAZING time with my boyfriend. But I can only see them through a freaking screen it's not the same as giving them a hug when they are going through a rough time at home. My best friend went through FOSTER CARE through this pandemic, thank goodness she's safe and has her brilliant smile. It's hard for her cause no-one understands what she was going through and left her. I was the only one still by her side through it all because I UNDERSTOOD. I've been through FOSTER CARE before and it SUCKS!...

    I've been through 6 homes in a span of 2 years. Each one JUST wanted my sister because she was the baby and a 2-year-old was apparently too old for them to start a family.  Anyway, I understood her situation, and I wanted to be there physically giving her support. But I COULDN'T and that hurts more than I ever thought it would. 

    Quarantine SUCKS! I know, but it's going to end eventually, and we just need to make the best of it right? But the big question is HOW? I have no freaking idea TBH. 🤷‍♀️ And I have no idea if I'm doing it right! All I want really is to not feel scared, I wasn't scared before but I am now more than ever because of a virus and other people. I want to scream for help, but no-one will hear me, cause I don't need help from the people I'm forced to hang out with 24/7.  

    Heck, I know that I have been VERY lucky, I haven't lost any thing from COVID-19 just my social life, where I would hug everyone. LOL. And I miss that, but I am addicted by attention TBH here, and I have none, except from my boyfriend who I LOVEEEE!!! But I can't help but wish for MORE. I know how bad that sounds. Heck, if I could be with my boyfriend for 3 hours in person every day, heck maybe my social life addiction would be replaced. LOL... huge shoutout on how great of a person he is for me. 

    I feel so helpless, and never have I ever thought that this world we live in got so DESTROYED by a virus.... but it did. PLEASE I am begging you, readers, to comment and tell me how your quarantine sickness is getting on. And how you are managing to keep it at bay or if you're in the same boat as I and can't!!!! THIS IS MY SOS!!!

See yah!! 

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SiCi💓💋💙