Those Thoughts...

 

(my drawing) 

Those Thoughts: 

    Yeah, I'm talking about those. The ones that say you're not good enough that you don't belong. 

    I'm sure there are ones that are more drastic, like the ones that hand you a knife, and before you know it it's pressing against your skin. The pain, you think that you deserve the pain. 

    You don't though.

    Sure those thoughts are consuming and you get pulled deeper down that hole, till you feel alone, and there's no-one there to save you. 

 Have you had those, or have you had glimpses of them? 

    At the beginning of the school year, I wrote a song. About a girl that had those thoughts.

Here read the lyrics carefully. 

She wanna end it all tonight,

She don’t even put up a fight,

Cryin’ on the couch till 2 am,

Thinking bout’ how she's gonna end ... it  

   

All I wanna do is keep her close, 

I wish she never feels alone (x2)

 

All this pain she's suffering

All of those stupid thoughts 

Telling her to run then drop

These torn memories, 

     

They haunt her dreams

         

Cause I'm not there to hold her,

 

 I'm not there to shoulder her tears, 

 

She’s my sun,

Am I her moon? 

Baby, there's nothing more I can do, 

Crying over these (x2) torn memories

 

She’s feeling broken, feeling worthless,

She’s always staying up at night,

Doesn’t even turn on the light, 

 

She’s fell out of reach,

   

All I wanted to let her know

That her smile glowed (x2)

     

All that pain that she's suffered,

   

All of those messed-up thoughts 

  

Convinced her to run then jump

These torn memories, 

    

They haunt my dreams

          

Cause now I can't hold her,

 

And now I cant shoulder her tears,

 

She was my sun,

Was I her moon?  

Baby, there's nothing I’d rather do, 

I wish that I had more time (x2) to spend with you

These torn memories are what's left of me (x2)

    

    Have you ever had a friend that changed overnight? Closed you off, closed everyone out? Have you done that? 

    At the end of the song, the girl ended her life because she couldn't take it anymore. And not only did she hurt herself, but she hurt those around her. 

    People that loved her, and what she left behind weren't all happy memories, some of them were torn, or broken, or frayed at the edges. 

    All I want you to know if your suffering from those thoughts, there are people here and around you that will understand. 

    All you have to do is get some help and talk to people. 

You can talk to me always....

I LOVE Y'ALL!!! 

    No matter what you are NEVER alone.

    Right here beside you, 

    Going offline, 

SiCi💙💗💜💛💞